Making and Breaking the New Year
It's only the third day of Chinese New Year and I've already done something that I'd regret for the whole year. - Great JOb Mr. Dunno When to Shut Your Mouth!It just reminds again how I need to learn when to shut my mouth, when to be sensitive and be less evil. I'm truly sorry but I don't know how or if I should say that to you. I hope you will really forgive me. No one was making fun nor did we do it on purpose. I'm SORRY! I am sorry if I have hurt you in any way, Auntie. Hopefully, when you wake up tomorrow, everything that happened will be history. Remember - we are family and we all care for you.
On the more (positive) aspect of things...
Chinese New Year celebrations hasn't been as dreadful as I had cynically expected it to be. I could even say it was Aight!! - a time for rebuilding ties and bonds, regardless of how superficial they might be... it's better than nothing. Plus, all the food!!... I would even say I kinda enjoyed CNY - minus all the sitting around at relative's place doing nothing.
The Ang Baos this year are also significantly "fatter" than last year's. heehee!
Gambling is also one of the most anticipated CNY activities. It's a good excuse for bonding, seriously. It's always a grand sight to have more than 10 family members getting around a table for a game of blackjack. Plus it's a chance to make some extra bucks too. However, the year of the PIG doesn't seem to be a good gambling year for me. Play what, lose what. Usually I very Heng during CNY, but not this time round.
Of course, there are the routine CNY questions that I dread : "Why didn't you bring your girlfriend along? I was expecting you to. Next year must bring OK?" As usual, I feel myself being redefined as a dysfunctional family member, even a loser. It sucks but it will only get worse when I grow older. With less counterparts remaining single...
As for my sister, the inevitable question directed to her was - When are you going to have a baby? Arghh!!! But the pain was instant and short-lived as the topic was quickly diverted to something else.
This year, CNY had to coincide with the school term break - Sucks. Less time for play and even less time for study and catching up, with all the work piled up on me.
Things to do
- Thesis draft (to be done by Thursday)
- Readings, in preparation for project meeting (to be done by Thursday)
- Arts Fest sched in preparation for TCO meeting (to be done by Thursday)
- Meetings scheduled for Thursday ( 11am - meet thesis supervisor, 12 pm - Social Change project meeting, 2 pm TCO meeting, 4 pm - Ethics project meeting)
- 2 episodes of The Hospital for subtitling and time-coding
- 2 outstanding article to be edited for TCO
The thought of it all makes me want to puke. To think that I still have the luxury and time of posting this blog. Ahh... Time is the one thing that I can never own. But still, everything can wait till tomorrow right?
Life goes on. Hoping for a betting tomorrow.
Let me save the rest of my cynicism and spiteful whining for another day.
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