妈， 生日快乐。
I feel so sorry for what I did to Alicia. One careless mistake of mine ruined her life for a week and she's still recovering from it. Sorry girl. I didn't mean it. It was just stupid of me...It's my Mum's bday today- Happy Bday Mum! My sister and I had been thinking for about a week now on what to get her. We came up with something, bought it and gave it to her yesterday night. But there was some misunderstanding and the happy event became a sour one. I think my sister's "Ba Zi" clash with my Mum's. My sister is one of those people who lose her temper easily and often for trivial stuff- sometimes like a 小气鬼。 But often to her family and not to her friends. Maybe I'm like that too sometimes. By doing that, she makes people around her unhappy as well. That is one thing about her that I hope she changes, even more so that she's married now. They just can't seem to communicate properly, not for the past 26 years.
人总是对家庭有一个幸福美满的憧憬。但这个家总是离这个憧憬那么的遥远。 This doesn't mean my family is essentially an unhappy and dysfunctional one. We are functional and I would even say we are happy, but something always seem to be missing, something always has to go wrong. Feelings never seem to reciprocate properly. There's always this anticipation of this happy family scene, but things never turn out that way. Years of toiling and working, and struggling to keep this family afloat have made my parents practical beings who are losing their ability to appreciate life in a impractical fashion. They are two of the most kind-hearted and responsible parents that I have and will ever know, but I guess the harsh reality of a low-middle income life has dealt some blows to their attitude towards life. They have lost the instinct to romanticize. 社会， 都是你的错。
